I Saw What I Saw

There is a beautiful song by Sara Groves called I Saw What I Saw. The words go like this . . .

I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it

These words describe how I am feeling today, yesterday, and on many other days.

In 1990, my cozy world was disrupted by a 20/20 documentary about the institutionalized children of Romania. For years I have followed the news reports, web sites, and stories of the 'forgotten' children. In addition, in 1998 my husband and I traveled to Romania to bring our first and oldest son home. He was 21 months old, living in a state run instituition. He is now a handsome, smart, and amazing boy who is almost as tall as I am!

Over the years I could never forget what I saw, heard, and felt concerning the children of Romania. I have searched my heart, cried out to God, and continued to pray about how He can use me for His kingdom. This weekend I was doing some more research on-line and found a few videos and reports I had not seen before. Once again, my heart is broken and I'm not sure what to do. The tears continue to flow and I am on my knees crying out to Him because . . .

I saw what I saw and I can't forget it
I heard what I heard and I can't go back
I know what I know and I can't deny it

In His Name, Kim

The videos mentioned are:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5mZcNmE11s
http://www.abandonedtkids.com/ - scroll to the bottom and click.

On my personal blog, divingintohisgrace.blogspot.com I am currently journaling about Kay Warren's book Dangerous Surrender on Thursdays. I am also going to begin journaling about our adoption journey with our son. Please join me! Thanks for reading and entering through the narrow gate.