Ready To Fly

(Make sure you check out Maria's updated profile, including her gorgeous picture! -Julie)

Please forgive my absence once again. Due to my busy schedule, I have closed the door to my part of the gate, and I am happy to be back inside…

God has truly been working in me lately.
I have had a prophecy spoken over me that relates my life to that of a butterfly.
It is time for me to get uncomfortable in the cocoon that I’ve been living in, and get ready to fly.

It’s a supernatural metamorphosis.
I have been learning many things about my passions of writing and worshipping.

The cocoon is getting uncomfortable and warm.
The temperature has gone sauna-like at times, but I must focus on the wings that He is developing for me---but not too much.

I have been anticipating the size and color my wings will be so much that at times I have lost focus of Him, and what He wants.
I know I must be in this place for a certain amount of time—His time---in order for my wings to be exactly the way He wants them.

He just wants to teach me and mold me; even if the colors aren’t as bright as I imagined, and even if my time in this cocoon is longer than I want it to be.

And in the meantime, He just wants me to be free to worship Him, exactly the way He made me to worship.

So I will.

Whether it is here spilling out His words at my computer--or
Singing at my keyboard or in my car,
Or on a church altar.

I will worship Him.

What does your cocoon feel like today?

Is it comfortable and cozy?

Or has the heat been getting to you?

I am ready to fly.

Are you?

Maria and her family reside in NE Ohio. She and her husband are the parents of two. Their daughter is a person with hemipelegic cerebral palsy.

Because of her experiences, Maria provides parent-to-parent support for families involved in her local early intervention program. Her gift for writing has come directly from the Lord since her daughter’s diagnosis.

She writes a monthly column entitled, “Special Parents, Special Kids” for the Mahoning Valley Parent magazine in Ohio; and has expanded into Parent magazines in parts of Pennsylvania and West Virginia.

She is also a contributing author at www.mommiesmagazine.com. Maria's first published work is in Jan Ross and Jeanice McDade's Women of Passion's anthology, "Ordinary Women Serving an Extraordinary God". The book is available for purchase by clicking on the book image on the right side of this blog.

Maria is very passionate about getting the word out to special parents that they are not alone in their journey of raising their special child; and that they were chosen by God to parent their children. Maria welcomes comments and communication as well as invitations for her to speak to your group.

Stepping Over The Line

In my last post I promised to share more about the Summit, the orphaned, and ways to become involved . . . and I will very soon. Today I have something pressing on my heart and I feel the need to walk, or shall I say "write" it out.

Since my salvation experience 2 1/2 years ago the Lord has been working in me as I chase Him, run from Him, and ultimately seek His face. I have been through seasons of joy, awe, peace, doubt, desperation, lonliness, and healing. My time with Him has been like a roller coaster ride and I must admit my favorite part has been the anticipation of His prescence and then going down the first hill with my hands in the air in total surrender. I love the freedom and thrill that He brings into my life! But today is different. Today I am standing on the platform of a new coaster, a new ride, right behind the 'yellow line,' asking myself . . . 'Do I really want to get on? Do I really trust that this is all 'real'? What if this ride is too scary, has too many twists and turns, or it is not what I thought it would be, what then?'

Within the past few weeks I have been at two separate prayer gatherings with two totally different groups of people and had the same words prophesied over me both times. The words were like an invitation, an invitation from the Lord, to enter into a new place of intimacy with Him. A place that is full of depth and love where He will share His heart with me. He is asking me to take His hand and be with Him, spend more time with Him, and truly fall in love with Him. He is asking me to start 'birthing' the destiny He has placed inside me, to trust Him, and not feel guilty or be afraid. But honestly, I am scared to death! In the natural my mind is swirling. Can I truly experience pure, fufilling love in this life that will not be filled with void and ultimately disappointment? Or am I really kidding myself? What if this whole 'Christianity thing' is not really real, then what? What if I make a fool of myself and land flat on my face? Ughhh!!!!

So here I stand on the edge, behind the yellow line, with a decision to make. Do I believe the words spoken over me through God's prophets or do I believe the lies man and the world has told me? Do I believe His Word, the bible, or do I spend my years here on earth searching for fufillment in man made truths in books, self help sections, and material things? Do I remember and give thanks for all the healing and peace He has already brought into my life or do I let the enemy convince me that it is all just a facade and not real? Well, I have already tried the later, so I suppose the choice has already been made. I'm going to step over the line, get in, buckle up, and get ready for the ride of my life. I will keep you posted.

Holding On, Kim